Sometimes I just seat in front of my window and think deeply. Questions lingers my mind. Questions that I don’t know where to get the answers. Am I doing good in my job? Do I satisfy my co-workers? Am I achieving my goals? What do I want to do in the future? Am I at the right track? Is this what I want?
So many questions.. I tried so many times to answer all of these but often I still doubt myself if my answers are true, because the biggest question to me now is how can I become a better person?
I am an introvert person. I always wanted to be alone. I don’t want people to be stepping into my life. I feel uncomfortable meeting new people and talking to them. It gives me so much stress. I tend to observe other peoples attitude very well. I always think why they act that way. I already read so many blogs and articles on how to become a better person but I always don’t know how to start. It seems like easy to do but when your already at the situation, it’s really hard. They said that you have to be nice all the time so that people won’t judge you. But how will you do it if the people around you are just taking advantage of you? They said you must control your anger all the time. But how will you do it if the people around you are hurting you emotionally?
I think there are so many ways of becoming better person. But the biggest challenge is how to start and maintain it? For me you can be the person you want as long as you are happy. Do what you love to do in life. If you’re stocked to a situation or career that is not of your choice find the silver lining in it. Or find a way to do what you really want and love. Have time always for yourself to think and evaluate how you are doing. Avoid the negative energies that will multiply all the doubts, fears and angers in your heart.It is not easy. It is never easy. I am also in the search now. Little by little I can see the light that I am looking for. I am not an expert to tell what what to do but my experience can tell you how to do it.
Surround your self with positive people. It will help a lot. Trust me.
If you have comments, questions or advises please feel free to contact me. I would love to share my experience to you and at the same time learn from you too.
Love,
KAT;)